dance with me forever

2009-10-27T18:01:00.000+07:00

sweethearts, i wish they didn't see the sadness in my eyes

2009-10-20T16:14:00.007+07:00

wake up and living my life again.for today.

☑ wake up so early tidy up my room
☑ wash the dishes, mop the floor, clean the entire house.
☑ collecting the dirty clothes
☑ drop them at the laundry
☑ buying airplane ticket for my cousin's wedding at my hometown
☑ paying all the bills. electricity, debt, etc
☑ dropping the car at car saloon
☑ BIG FAT body treatment package at saloon. creambath, body scrub & spa, manicure & pedicure. feels like re-born :)
☑ groceries shopping
all DONE :)

☑ late lunch & talk with nareswari. having ice cream 4 days in a row. i have to stop!
☑ late dinner with unejune and meeting the only Nasution brother.
☑ someone read me tarot cards. speechless.
☑ and my bestfriend chacha & khemod engaged today!!! Congratulations baby ♥ love you both

and a quote that choked me today: "A dream we dream together is reality."John Lennon.
sadly and unfortunately its not for me. maybe i'm just a fool i thought we was planning and dreaming together, apparently i was planning my whole life to someone that doesn't count me in on his life.

hide me. anywhere.

2009-10-20T11:46:00.015+07:00

nesting here and there. lock myself at home, even worst, at my bedroom. i dont want to be found. the only good thing is to see my brother finally got somebody to share with and forgetting his too sexy & pretty ex. so i call him, my good friend, to accompany me to the movie to watch the barsterds, while he's still spending the saturday night at his girlfriend's house..hahah..i hope the girlfriend wouldn't mind :)

thank you

we just love the same girl too much. sweet ♥

2009-10-20T11:44:00.007+07:00

there's another earthquake hit jakarta today. its's dedato aerobic day, listening to new order's perfect kiss all over, having sushi dinner with the eldest sister of Nasution :)) @amoristia filled my blank spot that night. talking about the "drugs" that dont work anymore, that nearly killed me, that i nearly overdose, and about the same girl we love too much, and burning the scars and do plastic surgery. talk about thing called life.

then join her fiance at drum and bass gig.

nothing really. i'm just, running again.

happiness is a strong cocktail

2009-10-16T11:18:00.007+07:00

and also a big cup of baskin robins ice cream :))

take a good care to you too & see you again sometime

2009-10-15T11:43:00.012+07:00

babysitting aimee while her mom went to singapore. it means, no need of killing so much time or not to let my self too tired
to even think, anymore. yaay! sleepover for 2 days!

i've switch everything off that night. having my 1st 8 hours sleep in the last 2 weeks. mindless sleep, mindless heart, less expectation
& stop beliving. just please don't say words i don't need to hear, and I'll stop asking you things that I know you
don't want to hear. should i stop fooling, and start listening? no.not now, please.

steal the moon for me. i'm too afraid of the dark. I'll tell you the whole story. I promise this time.
workin' on another airport project. so excited because first, i got the full control of it :) and, second, its my hometown's airport.

accidentally having matching outfit with cici. and..its approved! OMG. wish me luck. meeting with the girls at blumchen.

don't touch me there. and please don't do it on purpose.
its just not the right time.okay? thank you. or maybe its enough.

Its funny and strange. Wedding parties.

2009-10-12T17:13:00.005+07:00

farah adisti & rangga danu's wedding

Oh, and its so funny with "hi" and "single?" And "umm..yeah, single."

an affair to remember

2009-10-12T17:12:00.033+07:00

heartbreak hotel. @kitssy @sugarscars @jul3sy @unejune @amoristia i only have masterhugs and visakisses card for the weekend payment, please take it :)

3+10+13

2009-10-12T17:12:00.015+07:00

same different.is it only takes a single spark?

fire man and the burned burden house

2009-10-12T17:09:00.003+07:00

A better relation doesn't depend upon how good understanding we have,it rather depends upon how good we are at avoiding misunderstandings

and I know the drugs won't work

2009-10-12T16:43:00.009+07:00

my former colleague, Alia & Gigin's Wedding Party at Bandung

and I know it just makes me worse, and yes I hope I'll see your face again

timakacih kaka dhea sayang sudah di potoin..♥♥♥

morning call

2009-10-09T11:40:00.001+07:00

someone please put some barrier at the edge of that cliff..

happiness is a warm gun

2009-10-09T11:29:00.008+07:00

burger, beer, chocolate milk, tea, under the tuscan's sun, yoda, mido's bite

"never put your happiness in other's hand no matter how much you love them, and be happy just by being you" thank you agnikarma

how far would you go

2009-10-06T22:02:00.001+07:00

to be with her

hide me

2009-10-06T22:01:00.003+07:00

in your apartment. take care of me.talk to me. comfort me. ease my tears away

Dear Heart, please be cooperative today. thank you.

2009-10-06T21:53:00.013+07:00

amusement park. brokenheart helps you ease the thrills away. you wont afraid of anything anymore, open my eyes so wide.this doesn't thread me anymore. its so impressive what an empty mind could do..raise up my hands, amuse my self, and it doesn't feel that hurt anymore.well, for today.

Happy 21st B'day DEDATO,my first love. Happy B'day ibuFIEFI ♥ let's DO FUN!

this is my heart,

2009-10-06T21:51:00.001+07:00

and its broken :(

put me in the freezer

2009-10-06T21:50:00.005+07:00

hard travel over the atmosphere then lost in the outer space.infinite.sadness

at the highest heights and the lowest low. die stube. ambulances. laughin' while cryin'

did you know that i was never living

2009-10-06T21:45:00.006+07:00

when you're not around? i was killing time and working hard about what so called 'our masterplan'. letting you go is my act of trust . i'm hoping i'll only get to truly keep what i give away. letting you go to reach out your dreams , and wishing hard for our tomorrows. i was always at you back. encourage and support you no matter what. no matter how far the distance will run between us. its my act of trust. did i push you too hard? did i ever give you not enough space? did i ever took you for granted?
and did you know that you broke my heart right after i found out what dreams and future truly means for me?

see with your eyes, not your heart.

2009-10-06T21:41:00.006+07:00

Hell'O Jakarta, surprise me!

its so strange seeing my own design being a cover of "under construction" of the project. so happy :)

home.

2009-10-06T21:15:00.005+07:00

where the heart is.

you know it means a lot for me

2009-10-06T21:13:00.002+07:00

what do you want? what should i do? :(

poignant

2009-10-06T21:11:00.004+07:00

sometimes people put up walls, not to keep others out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.

feels like cassie doing the whole tube of tablets

2009-10-06T21:08:00.007+07:00

having fun with @fatimahbin @trans studio ♥
rockin'tug. feels like cassie doing the whole tube of tablets.

moura & leisha

2009-10-06T21:03:00.005+07:00

its warming my heart seeing my girlfriends turns from a neurotic highschool heartbreaker into married women,
into beautiful mothers to beautiful baby girls..love you girlfriends!